Same As Myself

by Serenade

Spoilers:
For the Season One finale.

Notes: For those not already clued in by the title, this free verse piece is a tribute from Reinhard to his 'other half', Kircheis.

Disclaimer:
I don't own the characters from Legend of the Galactic Heroes. They are the creation of Yoshiki Tanaka and belong to him. The rest of this piece is copyrighted to Serenade and may not be reproduced without express permission.

When you were dead
I shut myself up in your tomb
relinquishing the empty world beyond
embracing both the silence and the dark.

They all thought I was crazy
To keep vigil by your side
As if I ever cared for their protests.
You were worth a thousand of these jackals
fawning, flattering, baying at my back.

I never thought that you could be so cruel
allowing all my pleas to go unheard.
Sometimes I almost catch your footfall at my side
the tireless tread that matches my own steps.
But then I reach out for an absent hand
I turn and fail to meet a sudden smile.

Oh, I would seize the universe for you -
Make a monument of all the stars.
And yet what is it worth to gain the heavens
if I have lost the sun that lit my days?

You were not meant for this
the bleakness of a barren grave.
I wish I could unravel the hours back
beyond that fatal moment that now falls
merciless as a guillotine across my life -

But no force in this world can ever reclaim
the light that's fled beyond eternity.

There are no miracles
There is no answer
from the silence that swells hugely in the night.
I am the remnant of our fearless dreams
left clutching at meteor dust and memories.

When I look into the mirror at my glacier eyes
I wonder who it was that died on that dark day
for while your shade still breathes into my dreams
my heart lies buried underneath cold stone.